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November 21, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time….

“Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever” – Psalm 23:6

It is Thanksgiving week….

The beginning of the major holidays….

The year of firsts….

We will not be without her….

Just a new way of celebrating with her….

We celebrated our anniversary in October….

It was not the same…

But still a celebration….

I could not hear her laugh….

Or hold her hand….

That was heartbreaking…

But she was there with us….

She will be with us in this season….

In heart….

In Spirit….

In Him….

Talking to a friend this week….

Giving me empathy….

In preparation for this season….

I am grateful for their heart for our family….

I am blessed to have their friendship….

I feel empathy….

For so many others….

There are so many who have it much worse….

I have come to realize….

Through this experience…

Everyone has their own version of trauma in their life…

Everyone….

We are not unique…

Or alone…

Everyone is walking….

Or has walked….

Through challenges….

Life changing events…

I have come to realize….

So many issues….

So many worse than ours…

Suicide….

Obviously harder….

So much to say there…

I cannot imagine….

Not so obvious….

Divorce….

It is so common….

So common we can be numb to it….

Numb to the impact it can have on one’s life….

The reality….

In most cases….

It is harder than what my family is walking through…

Harder than the death of a loved one….

We have peace…

Yes, we have pain in the flesh….

But we don’t stay there long….

We celebrate in the Spirit….

We have hope….

We know where she is….

We know we will be with her again….

We know she is healed….

We know she is whole….

We know she is in perfect peace….

We know she is with Jesus….

We are almost envious….

But we have peace….

Divorce….

So many unanswered questions….

Til death do us part….

Why didn’t that work….

What did I do wrong….

How did I fail….

I never wanted that tag…

Divorced…

I know….

I have been there….

I have the divorced tag…

I praise God it was an event….

Not a lifetime…

It can define us if we allow it…

What if infidelity is involved….

The questions mount…

What did I do wrong….

How did I lose their love….

What could I have done differently….

Why don’t they love me anymore….

Do they still care at all….

Was it ever real….

If children are involved….

They have the same questions…

They can feel responsible…

Abandoned….

With children…

That reality of divorce…

The reminder of divorce…

Is every week…

Swapping the children….

The pain….

The anger…

The hurt…

Renewed every week…

With no answers….

I have a failed marriage….

Not for infidelity….

For so many other reasons….

The biggest….

I did it without Him….

The whole marriage….

From proposal….

Through all 10 years….

I was in the flesh….

I own that….

It was still hard…

It was my decision to give up…

I had many good reasons…

Reasons I could have acted on many years before…

I cried like a baby the day it was final…

Felt like a failure….

In death, we lose the physical presence….

We have memories to hold onto…

Good memories…

Hope….

Hope in Jesus….

I have not lost a loved one….

I know exactly where my healed wife is….

I will see her again….

In divorce, we have loss…

We know where they are….

We are faced with it every day…

It breaks my heart….

To think that anyone…

Is walking through their season….

Through their trauma…

Whatever that is…

Without Jesus….

Even believers….

Taking it on themselves….

Not leaning into His love….

His goodness….

Not letting Him carry them through their pain….

Breaks my heart….

He is always there….

No matter what we are walking through….

If sin caused our pain….

He is there….

There to forgive….

There to love….

There to carry us through….

His goodness and love….

Will follow us…

All the days of our life…..

I cannot begin to imagine…

Walking through this season without Him…

This has been a beautiful horrible experience…

I am a peaceful wreck…

Jesus is the source of the beautiful and the peaceful….

Without Him….

It is just a horrible experience…

And I am a wreck….

He can be that beauty…

He can be that peace…

To anybody…

In any situation….

He wants to be that…

That peace…

That beauty…

To everyone….

My heart…

Is for EVERYONE to know that….

….All the time God is good

November 17th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

November 17th, 2023

God is good all the time….

Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.  You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.  –  Psalm 73:23-24

I overheard an awesome testimony on the radio….

An overcomer….

They had stage 4….

They are cancer free today….

Praise God….

To Him be all the glory….

In the flesh….

For just a moment…

I let envy slip in….

I let pity slip in….

I got selfish….

Why not me….

Why not her….

It does not seem fair….

I had a friend tell me the same….

It does not seem fair….

I had to answer myself…

The same way I answered her….

She is in heaven….

How can I say that is unfair….

If anything….

What is unfair….

Is that she gets to be in his presence….

She finished her race….

She is in His glory….

Fully healed….

Fully whole….

I am stuck on this dirt ball called earth….

I am not finished….

I am not finished glorifying Him on this earth….

I have more to do….

He depends on it….

His plan depends on it….

People depend on it….

Salvations depend on it…

It is an honor….

To still be here….

To still have lives to change….

There is nothing unfair….

About any of it….

He died….

So I may have the hope….

So I may know….

That we will all be together again….

Our time on earth…

Is just a vapor…

We will be together again….

For eternity….

I cannot comprehend eternity….

I know it is a really really really long time….

That is good enough for me….

Nothing is unfair about this….

Her in heaven….

Victory…..

The children and I….

Growing closer to the Lord….

Victory…

Having an intimate relationship with the Lord….

Victory….

Getting to do works to glorify Him….

Victory….

Getting to spread His love…

His goodness…

His faithfulness….

Victory….

Nothing unfair about it…

Not that she is there….

And we are here….

Nothing is unfair….

He has turned it all for good….

For her….

For us….

He is guiding our every step….

His calling on my life is clearer than ever….

To raise my five world changers…..

To advance His Kingdom with our testimony of His goodness…

To give all of my time to him…

To be full time, all out for the Lord….

What does that look like….

I have no idea…..

He knows me well enough….

Enough to only reveal one step at a time….

Not two at a time….

Just one…

He knows I will rush out ahead….

With my head down….

in my own power…

In pride…

Like I don’t need His direction….

When I finally look up…

I will be somewhere….

But nowhere close…

 Nowhere close to where He intended me to be…

Had I let Him guide EVERY step…

I rush ahead….

My 5 world changers….

Will be in tow….

Behind me….

Nowhere close….

To where He intended US to be….

I don’t have her….

To help slow me down….

To help bring balance….

I need Him more than ever….

I have never trusted like this in my life….

Given EVERY step….

Being ok….

Not seeing the next step….

It is all just a fog ahead of me….

It is a bright, beautiful fog….

One step at a time….

I give it all to Him….

I will not do this without Him….

My children depend on it….

The lives He needs me to influence….

For His glory….

Depend on it….

I start every day….

Here I am….

Here I am….

It is an honor….

To give everything….

Everything to you Lord….

I may be broken…

But you can use anything….

You can have it all….

Here I am….

….All the time God is good

November 14th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

November 14th, 2023

God is good all the time….

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good…”  Gen 50:20

The boys have been struggling a bit….

They are missing their healed mama….

Caleb rarely shows emotion….

He was down this weekend….

Just not happy about anything….

We talked….

He tried to be strong….

Act like it was everything else….

I finally asked…

Are you missing mom….

He leaned into me with a hug….

The tears began to flow….

He nodded his head yes….

It broke my heart…

It was good to see him cry….

To see him deal with the emotions….

To grieve….

We stayed in that moment for a bit….

Squeezing just a little harder….

Tears still coming….

He misses her….

I miss her….

We climbed out of the despair….

We moved to joy….

Joy in the hope of Jesus….

Joy in knowing she is with Him…

We prayed to Jesus….

Thanked Him for the hope we have in Him….

Asked Him to look to His right….

Tell his healed mama he loves her….

Tell his healed mama he misses her….

Jesus just held us….

Comforted us….

Let us feel His presence….

Peace and comfort came over us….

It was one year ago tomorrow….

We got the diagnosis….

Stage 4 breast cancer….

It had moved to her bones….

That began our journey….

Leaning into God more than we ever knew possible….

What the enemy meant for evil….

God was already turning for good…

Drawing us close to Him….

Introducing us to an intimacy with Him…

An intimacy I never want to lose…

An intimacy I want my children to feel….

An intimacy I am already seeing in some of them…

An intimacy that grows deeper every day…

Because I draw near to Him…

And He draws near to me….

She is no longer in pain…

She received her ultimate healing in heaven….

God is going to use her spirit in heaven….

To make an even greater impact…

Then when it was here on earth…

Her spirit made a pretty big difference…

When it was here on earth…

He will turn what the enemy meant for evil….

To good….

Caleb and I talked about that….

Found joy in that….

Pulled ourselves back….

Back to a place of comfort…

There is always peace….

Even when we hurt in the flesh….

There is still peace….

Knowing He has got us….

He has got her….

One of the last things she said to me….

It was just a whisper….

It was all she had….

Don’t stop living….

I never thought I would have to figure that out….

How to live without her…

He has let me know….

We are not without her….

She is with us….

She is in each of us…

Her legacy is in the children…

We are not living without her….

We are learning a new way of living with her….

We have not stopped living…

Through this new intimacy…

He is showing us how to live even stronger….

With Him….

With her….

I am not a single dad….

I am a single bodied dad….

I am multi spirited dad….

I have my one body….

He has sent many other bodies on earth…

To be His hands and feet…

To help in the flesh….

In the spirit…

I have Jesus…

The Holy Spirit…

My healed wife’s spirit in heaven….

Ministering Angels…

I have an army….

I am not alone…

We are not alone…

We are stronger than ever…

In Him…

Our faith is stronger than ever….

We will make a difference….

A difference for Him….

For the rest of our lives….

I get grouchy….

I get stressed….

That is when I take it on myself….

On myself to be the solution….

On myself to be the answer….

On myself to handle it all….

My pride takes over….

My attitude declines….

I am trying to carry a burden….

A burden I was not meant to carry….

A burden He chose to die for…

He died so He could carry our burdens….

Our sin of worry….

Our sin of pride….

Holding onto my cares….

Makes His sacrifice….

All for nothing….

That is not how He wants it….

He wants our intimate relationship….

One where we trust…

One where we love….

One where we believe….

One where we give….

Give Him all He has died for….

Our life….

Our thoughts….

Our love….

Our sins….

Our future….

Our eternity….

Our time….

Our hearts….

Our joy…

Our peace….

Our happiness…

Our sins….

Our cares….

Our stress….

Our troubles…

He died to carry our burdens…

So we do not have to….

Because we are not able to….

That is why I get grouchy….

Grouchy when I try to do this alone….

I get frustrated….

Feel like I am failing….

I turn to Him….

I turn to Jesus….

I turn to eternal victory….

Through Him….

And I am flooded…

With His joy…

With His peace…

With His presence…

My joy returns….

Through Him alone….

…..All the time God is good!

November 10th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time….

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”  James 1:5

I have no idea what I am doing….

By now I think I would….

But I don’t…

It is overwhelming in the flesh….

Homeschool is tougher than I ever imagined….

My Healed Wife was even more amazing than I thought…

She made this look so easy….

I always knew she worked harder than I did….

By the grace of God, I am a hard worker….

She was even more…

So much more….

I did not realize how much….

Not just school….

Raising our 5 world changers….

She poured all of herself into them….

They are amazing children….

They are a reflection of all she gave to them….

She did nothing for herself….

It was all for them…

For me….

Rarely for herself….

All I did was provide….

I thought that was hard….

What I did to contribute did not compare…

To all she did….

I provided food….

I provided shelter….

I provided support…

She built a legacy….

She…

Built…

A legacy….

I knew that when she was on earth….

I know it even more today….

I know she was amazing….

She is still amazing….

She is still with us….

In the children….

In our hearts….

I don’t know how to do this….

I do not know what I am doing….

But He does….

He continues to slowly reveal…

To show me in His time….

I have no clue how to do this alone….

He reminds me I am not alone….

He is always with us….

I have no idea how to do this without My Healed Wife….

He reminds me we are not without her….

We are just learning a new way of living with her….

When she first went to be with Jesus….

I was convinced….

For the rest of my life…

Convinced…

That a dog was going to be my companion….

He has been working on my heart….

Regarding pride….

Mostly in my career….

That is another story….

But now here too….

It is pride….

To think I don’t need help….

To think I don’t need a companion….

To think the boys don’t need a woman’s loving touch….

To think the girls don’t need a woman’s deep perspective…

She will never be replaced….

But there is a hole…

A hole that can be filled….

Filled by a person just for this season…

A person He will provide….

He put it on my heart….

Maybe it won’t be a dog….

Maybe those are not My plans for you…

Maybe those are your prideful plans….

He continued….

You can care for another…

Without diminishing what you had…

What you had with your My Healed Wife….

Nothing will ever take that away from you….

Nothing…

He continued to press on me….

Be still…

Let me guide you….

Every step….

It will all be ok….

I have you son….

It was an intimate conversation….

I leaned into him….

He brought me peace….

Peace that in His time….

He may bring me someone to walk along beside me….

Beside us….

Not to replace her….

But to compliment her….

Help continue what she started….

To continue the legacy….

To the glory of the Lord….

I will wait…

I will continue to walk…

One step at a time…

I give it all to Him….

He is so faithful….

He is so good….

I cannot see my next steps….

He is protecting me…

Protecting me from running out ahead…

Showing me one step at a time….

I cannot see my next step….

Not because of darkness….

Not because of fear….

Not because of doubt….

I cannot see my next step….

Because of the light….

Because I have given it ALL to Him….

It is bright….

It is a blinging light….

I have hope with each step…

Peace with each step….

Comfort with each step….

I see His glory in the light….

I have no fear….

I have no anxiety….

I have love…

Peace….

Hope….

My children are going to be ok….

I am going to be ok….

He will provide us the wisdom….

Wisdom with each step….

Wisdom with each decision….

As long as I keep asking….

Keep seeking….

He will keep providing….

….All the time God is good.

November 7th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time….

“God is the same yesterday and today and forever” – Hebrews 13:8

We have been seeking God as a family….

We have always been seeking God as a family….

My oldest two have a deeper desire right now…

They are seeking a relationship with Him….

The next level….

An intimate relationship…..

We did an exercise with some friends….

We were to give God a stress….

Give Him a lie we were believing….

Give Him a trouble we were facing….

Praying in faith….

That He will answer….

After we prayed quietly….

We sat in silence….

With our palms up….

Seeking a vision of what the burden looked like in our palms….

Asking God to take it….

Asking God to replace it….

If willing….

Sharing with others what the Lord said to us….

My two oldest and I were discussing it later…

My oldest teared up in the discussion….

My first thoughts….

Are you missing Mom……

With hesitation….

Yes was her response…..

But….

In our exercise….

I did not hear anything from God….

The tears flowing….

She does not have the intimacy she is seeking….

I asked her what stress or lie she gave him….

She said she did not give Him anything….

I asked why not….

He cannot take anything from you…

If you do not give it to Him….

He cannot upgrade you….

If you do not give Him what needs repaired…

We talked some more….

I asked some more questions….

She has some stress in her life….

But she did not identify it as significant….

I asked her if it was impacting how she acted or behaved…

Was it keeping her from being her…

The person God designed her to be….

Was it keeping her from shining for Him….

From being the best version of herself…

The person he designed her to be….

Was her stress or the lie impacting that at all….

He wants you to be exactly who He designed you to be….

That person will change the world….

For Jesus…

That person will shine the love of Jesus….

That person will be a blessing to all paths they cross…

That person will help others….

That person will discover His calling on their life….

That person will pursue that calling…

Pursue with no limits…

No fear….

No distractions….

Pursue with all that they have….

And that person will glorify God…

In ALL that they do…

So if what seems small….

May not be so small….

If it is changing your behavior….

In the slightest….

It is a big deal….

He has plans for us….

He wants to clear the path for us…

Give it to Him….

He cares for you….

We took a step back….

Started with the first step of the exercise….

Give….

She is thinking about what to give Him….

Praying on what to give Him….

Once she has clarity….

We will do the exercise again….

He will respond….

He is so good…..

He is so faithful….

He is love….

Just like eternity….

Just like a light year…

Just like a few other random things….

Things I struggle to comprehend…

Pure love is hard to comprehend….

Loving without limits….

Without caveats….

Unconditionally….

He is the only one who can provide it….

He si the only one who can do it….

Because He is it….

He is love….

Eternity…..

All I know….

 It is a really really really long time….

And that is ok with me….

Perfect love….

All I know…

It is Jesus….

What does that mean….

I can trust in His word….

He will never let me down….

He will never forsake me….

I had a typo recently….

After I reread it….

It was not the words I intended to write….

But it was not a typo….

It was true….

In every way possible….

It was profoundly true….

I am so grateful it is true….

I am a peaceful wreck in this beautiful horrible experience…

Only because it is true….

Only because it is true….

I was trying to type “God is good all the time…”

My typo….

God is God all the time…..

I am so grateful for that….

I am so grateful for that truth….

I am so grateful for His work in my family….

I am so grateful for all the support He has sent us….

I am grateful for His love….

His Faithfulness….

His Goodness…

His hand in my life…..

His hand on my children….

His protection….

His grace….

His mercy….

His love….

….All the time God is good.

November 1st, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

November 1st, 2023

God is good all the time….

If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the master and prepared to do any good work.  – 2 Timothy 2:21

One year ago we went to SC….

Just My Healed Wife and I….

It was an anniversary trip…

While we were there….

Her back and neck pain became excruciating….

It was tough to get out of bed….

We were able to walk the beach once….

Put her toes in the sand….

It was not Navarre….

But it was the beach….

We knew something was going on in her body….

Did not expect the news we would get two weeks later….

She could not turn her head in any direction….

We found a juice bar and started to flood her body….

Flood it with all that we knew to do….

We found a sauna….

It seemed to bring a little relief….

Praise God He was with us….

Praise God He did not allow that pain to continue….

Although the disease worsened…..

He took that pain away….

He did not let the children see her in that pain….

He brought her a quality of life….

He took that specific pain away from her….

The journey started a month before in October….

A chiropractor x-ray showing a cracked vertebra….

With no explanation why….

It started the questions….

It started the doctor visits….

It started our beautiful horrible experience….

I look at happy couples sometimes….

I rejoice with them….

In a weak moment…

I let envy slip in….

Does he really appreciate what he has…..

His wife in the flesh….

Being a family with her husband….

Does he take her for granted…..

Does he know it could be different….

Tomorrow…

Does he treat her like there may not be a tomorrow….

Does he let the petty stuff go….

Does he focus on her beauty….

The beauty that Jesus sees in her….

Does he let her know she is loved….

Does he protect her….

Does he lead her….

Does he put his love in all that he does for her….

Does he believe in her….

Does he let her know he believes in her…

Does he make sure she feels special….

Not in his eye….

But in the eyes of the Lord…..

Does He point her to Him…..

Does he realize what he has….

I pull myself back to celebrating with them….

That they have each other….

That they can hold hands….

That they can look into each others eyes….

The Bible says to rejoice with those who rejoice….

That is what I choose to do….

I just want to tell him….

To love her like there is no tomorrow….

I was blessed with the opportunity to be all I could be to her….

I have no regrets….

I loved her the best I knew how….

I got better at it every day….

I love her today and forever….

God has been quiet lately….

I have been tired….

Distracted….

Nothing bad….

Just too much in my life….

I had no margin….

I tried to force more into this life without margin….

Everything started to unravel….

I have not been listening….

I was exhausted….

He was ready….

He was there….

I was not….

He was there….

Right by my side….

I have just not been still…

I have not been quiet….

I have not been rested….

I realized I was not being intentional….

I realized and turned back to Him….

I want to be useful to my Master….

I want to be prepared to do any good work….

I have two callings on my life right now….

To raise my 5 world changers in the ways they should go….

To spread the Gospel through my story…

I had ben failing at both over the last few weeks…

I missed the intimacy with the Lord….

He missed me….

He gave me many signs….

Signs to come back to Him…

I came back to Him yesterday….

He was waiting with open arms…

He missed me….

As much as I missed Him….

He downloaded so much on me….

Overwhelmed with His presence once again….

He started back with a few basics….

Making sure I was listening….

Making sure I was ready for Him…

For Him to continue to use me….

Use me to spread His goodness….

The story of His faithfulness…

The truth about his unconditional love….

Not just for me….

But for ANYONE who will receive it….

I have one word to describe His calling on my future….

GOSPEL….

What about it….

Know it….

Live for it….

Love because of it….

Spread it….

I can sum it up in three sentences….

We don’t deserve it….

Yet He chose to die so that we may have it….

All we have to do is receive it….

….All the time God is good

October 23rd, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

October 23, 2023

God is good all the time….

The Word of the Lord is right and true; He is faithful in all He does – Psalm 33:4

Saturday was our 17th anniversary….

It was a day full of emotions….

Full of joy….

Full of memories….

Full of love….

The children took amazing care of me….

Wrote me beautiful cards….

My 11-year-old got real on me….

Not something I am used to….

Not something I was ready for….

It was a homemade card….

In it he wrote…

The five letters that spell daddy are found on the thing that I will always remember you and Mom by….

The picture he drew is the Ferris wheel called the eye of Orlando…

The carts were shaped like D’s, the A and the Y were found in the frame…

He continues to write….

The center “O” is Jesus holding our family together, and the “D” is us….

Eight the number that makes up my family….

I broke down in tears….

Joseph came and hugged me….

Daddy don’t be sad….

I told him….

These are tears of joy son….

I am crying again as I write this now….

Not tears of sadness….

Tears of joy….

I am so proud of my mighty man of God….

He went real on me….

I was not expecting that…

What the enemy meant for evil….

He is using for His good…..

For His glory….

He has drawn my 11 year old son into a relationship…

A relationship with Him…

Like I never expected him to have at 11 years old….

We just continue to be cradled by the Lord….

I am full of emotions….

Overwhelmed with love….

Overwhelmed with joy….

Overwhelmed with gratitude….

He has sent so many people to love on us…

My children….

They take great care of daddy….

Watching Avengers End Game….

Iron Man saves the world….

But dies trying….

He is holding onto his last breaths….

Pepper holds his hand….

With complete love….

She releases him to stop fighting…

She gives him permission to move to peace….

She says…

“We are going to be ok now….

You can go….”

The tears poured out of me….

As I recalled the same conversation….

The conversation I had with My Healed Wife…

In her final days….

Unresponsive….

Holding on….

Baby, if the Lord is calling you home….

Go….

We will be ok…..

He will take care of us…

The hardest conversation I have had in my life….

Tears flowing….

Now watching Avengers….

Tears flowing….

Crying as hard as the day she went to be with Jesus….

My children surrounded me….

I was remembering her pain….

They helped me see her as she is now…

With Jesus….

Perfectly healed….

Perfectly whole….

In His presence….

Their peace….

Their maturity…

Surrounded me….

His love….

Surrounded us all…..

We ended the night with smiles and love….

With Him again….

Holding us in His arms….

…. All the time God is good.

October 17th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time…..

I am not a tech guy…

But God has called me to share our story….

Share our beautiful horrible experience….

Share how he is loving on this person…

On this family….

How He is carrying us through….

How He showed up….

Time after time after time….

He has never forsaken us….

He never let us down….

He never left us alone….

He never left our side…

I am a peaceful wreck….

He is the peace of the peaceful wreck…

He is the beauty of the beautiful horrible….

He is the source of joy through all this….

I cannot imagine anyone walking through this without Him….

We are not unique….

Everyone….

Everyone has tragedy in their life…

In some form or fashion…

Everyone is or has walked through this season…

I cannot imagine anyone walking through this without Him…

Without Him….

Horrible wreck….

With him….

Beauty and peace….

I am not worthy….

In the flesh….

That is how I feel….

But He says different….

He says I am worthy….

Worthy of His goodness….

His faithfulness….

His peace….

His love….

His mercy….

His grace…..

His abundance….

He believes I am worthy….

Worthy enough to die for me….

How can I not share….

Everyone is worthy….

Everyone can have the beautiful peace…

He is not prejudice….

Everyone is welcome to walk with Him….

I set this blog up all up myself…

The non-tech guy….

Just testing to see it is functional….

I am excited to have a larger platform….

A way to reach more….

To share God’s goodness in our lives….

It got difficult….

I almost quit….

Almost gave up…

He asked me a question….

Do you give up this easily on everything…..

Ouch…..

That stung a bit…..

But was so true….

I do not quit….

Why was I going to quit on something God has called me to do….

The enemy knows my tech ignorance…..

One wrench and he will quit…..

The first wrench hit…

Very early in the process….

I almost threw my computer out the window….

Twice…

My children helped calm me down….

The Lord sent them to help…

The Lord spoke to my heart….

Keep sharing….

Reach more people….

Your FB posts are just a start….

Just a beginning…..

More people need the hope…..

More people need the peace….

More people need the trust….

More people need the love….

More people need Jesus….

People who dont know Him need to hear our story….

People who do know Him need to hear our story…

Do not give up….

It was not a suggestion….

It was a command….

I will be faithful….

Here is the blog….

But I have heard sharing a blog post does not reach as many feeds as organic posts reach…

Would you be willing to like or comment on this post if it hit your feed?

Would you also try the link to the blog and check out?

Maybe comment on a post in the blog?

Try to share a post on the blog with a friend?

I am not worthy of His goodness….

None of us are….

Yet He gave His life for us….

So we could have it all…

….. all the time God is good.

October 9th, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time….

Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, Lord, have helped me and comforted me. – Psalm 86:17

The enemy works hard against us….

He wants us to believe his lies….

He wants a little opening….

Into our minds…

Into our thoughts…

Into our hearts….

An opening only we can give him….

He has no access to me…

Unless I give it to him….

Unless I entertain one of his lies…

Unless I receive one of his attacks….

The Lord has equipped me…

I have the Armor of God…

I am to do all I can do to stand….

And then stand….

Faith is my shield….

His word is my sword…

I can stand…

I am equipped….

I can stand…

There is good news in the attacks….

If the enemy liked the direction we were going….

If we were walking with him…

If we were walking away from the Lord…

He would not be attacking….

He would be supporting our direction….

He would be paving the way….

Not creating roadblocks….

Not putting up mountains….

Not trying to fill our minds with his lies…

So I welcome the attacks of the enemy…

It is confirmation….

Confirmation that I am walking with the Lord…

That we are going the right direction…

And not walking with the enemy….

I have the armor….

I am ready to stand….

His goodness is all around me….

The enemy lies and tells me I am failing….

That same day….

Two people encouraged me….

Out of the blue….

Both completely unprompted….

“Kerry, you are doing a good job”….

“Kerry, you are really doing well with the children, they are well”….

The Lord used those people to encourage me….

To help snuff out the lies of the enemy….

The enemy and the Lord both knew I was tired and weak….

So the enemy attacked…

The one place he can get access….

If I let him…

My mind….

He lied…

He told me I was failing with the children…

The Lord rose up….

Because He knew I was tired….

I was weak….

He sent me reinforcements….

Encouragement….

Just what I needed to hear….

“Kerry, the children are well”….

Let those who are weak say, I am strong…

I don’t have this alone….

It is all Him….

This beautiful horrible experience….

The peaceful wreck that I am….

It is because of His love….

His grace….

His mercy….

His faithfulness….

His strength….

His joy….

That is the source of the beautiful….

That is the source of the peaceful….

Without Him….

I am a horrible wreck…..

I am emotionally bankrupt without Him….

It was one choice….

That changed it all….

To receive Him….

To invite Him into my heart….

And to walk this life out with Him….

I can stand….

….. all the time God is good.

October 3rd, 2023

By Kerry Knight on

God is good all the time….

Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness – Matthew 6:33

My devotional this morning….

It was written for wives….

Talking about 1 Peter 3:1….

How the wife should be in subjection to the husband….

How the wife should support her husband….

How he has enough battles at work…

Enough battles with the enemy….

He should come home to loving and supportive wife….

It made me reflect on my healed wife…

It made me reflect on relationships around me…

That scripture is clear…

As His Word always is…

Wives should support their husbands…

That does not mean wives should tolerate abuse…

Not physical….

Not emotional….

Not spiritual….

It does not mean to tolerate abuse….

This is direction on responding to a Godly man….

Whether I always fit that shoe…

The Godly man shoe….

My healed wife always supported me…

Always….

The Godly shoe…

It continued to fit better and better….

As my relationship with Him grew….

Encouraged by her…

As her relationship grew with Him…

Encouraged by me….

Our relationship together grew…

Stronger…

And stronger….

We were equally yoked…..

We were designed for each other….

We still are…..

She was always there for me….

I used to tell her….

I can handle anything….

Anything….

As long as I have her on my side….

As long as I have Him on my side…

And I always did….

And I still do….

And I can handle anything….

Even if being on my side meant correction and direction….

She did it with truth and love….

I stood corrected….

And we pressed forward….

Growing together….

I miss her….

With every breath….

But we are still growing….

Together….

Our schedule is calming down a bit….

We are searching for some routine….

As I sit here spending time with the Lord…

My children trickle out…

To be with me…

To be with Him….

To seek first….

To start their day with His peace…

His love….

His direction….

He is keeping us strong….

Together….

His joy is our strength….

I think the children are taking better care of me…

Than I am taking of them….

But we are figuring it out together….

With Him….

With Her….

We are walking in joy…

And in peace….

Rising above the pain…

One breath at a time….

One step at a time….

….. all the time God is good!

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