October 23, 2023
God is good all the time….
The Word of the Lord is right and true; He is faithful in all He does – Psalm 33:4
Saturday was our 17th anniversary….
It was a day full of emotions….
Full of joy….
Full of memories….
Full of love….
The children took amazing care of me….
Wrote me beautiful cards….
My 11-year-old got real on me….
Not something I am used to….
Not something I was ready for….
It was a homemade card….
In it he wrote…
The five letters that spell daddy are found on the thing that I will always remember you and Mom by….
The picture he drew is the Ferris wheel called the eye of Orlando…
The carts were shaped like D’s, the A and the Y were found in the frame…
He continues to write….
The center “O” is Jesus holding our family together, and the “D” is us….
Eight the number that makes up my family….
I broke down in tears….
Joseph came and hugged me….
Daddy don’t be sad….
I told him….
These are tears of joy son….
I am crying again as I write this now….
Not tears of sadness….
Tears of joy….
I am so proud of my mighty man of God….
He went real on me….
I was not expecting that…
What the enemy meant for evil….
He is using for His good…..
For His glory….
He has drawn my 11 year old son into a relationship…
A relationship with Him…
Like I never expected him to have at 11 years old….
We just continue to be cradled by the Lord….
I am full of emotions….
Overwhelmed with love….
Overwhelmed with joy….
Overwhelmed with gratitude….
He has sent so many people to love on us…
My children….
They take great care of daddy….
Watching Avengers End Game….
Iron Man saves the world….
But dies trying….
He is holding onto his last breaths….
Pepper holds his hand….
With complete love….
She releases him to stop fighting…
She gives him permission to move to peace….
She says…
“We are going to be ok now….
You can go….”
The tears poured out of me….
As I recalled the same conversation….
The conversation I had with My Healed Wife…
In her final days….
Unresponsive….
Holding on….
Baby, if the Lord is calling you home….
Go….
We will be ok…..
He will take care of us…
The hardest conversation I have had in my life….
Tears flowing….
Now watching Avengers….
Tears flowing….
Crying as hard as the day she went to be with Jesus….
My children surrounded me….
I was remembering her pain….
They helped me see her as she is now…
With Jesus….
Perfectly healed….
Perfectly whole….
In His presence….
Their peace….
Their maturity…
Surrounded me….
His love….
Surrounded us all…..
We ended the night with smiles and love….
With Him again….
Holding us in His arms….
…. All the time God is good.
I have joined you with tears as I was reading this. That is so amazing! The creativity and maturity and spirituality behind that picture amazes me. At 11 years old, your son is truly a gift from God. What a blessing that your children already love the Lord and can even see our Savior in a Ferris wheel!! Growing up a man of God is a lovely thing. We need them! The bonds that you have and will continue to grow are beyond precious and above” anything we can ask or think.” That’s what the Lord says he can do! Thank you as always for sharing your heart. I had a wonderful day yesterday and see the Lord working. He reached down to me personally yesterday through our guest speaker. I felt like the words were just for me! Keep writing Kerry. Don’t ever let the enemy tell you this isn’t doing anything! He wants us to feel that we don’t matter. But we are all a part of the Body of Christ. All parts are needed. God bless you and your children and continue to draw you to Him. Your healed wife is so proud of you!
Thank you Kelli! I really appreciate your encouragement and it is in perfect timing! God bless you Kelli!
I had to have that same conversation with my mom before she would finally go. So so hard. I am so proud of you and your divinity and grace. Sharing this very personal journey with the world is east. But you are making a HUGE impact. I love you, Kerry.
Thank you cousin for your encouragement and for sharing about Aunt Sue. I am so sorry you can relate to that conversation so intimately. I love you Kim!!