God is good all the time….
He has made it abundantly clear that He will never leave me nor forsake me….
This beautifully horrible experience continues…
The horrible will always be there…
I miss my healed wife more every day…
The beautiful gets more vibrant and intimate every day….
Still overwhelmed and only communicating in fragments….
At least I am communicating….
He continues to teach me so much…
I have mentioned that my relationship with Him has become more intimate because I have chosen to start listening…
He has been there all along just waiting on me…
I have found the same applies to my children….
They have been there just waiting on me….
I have realized the same static in my brain and the same chaos of life that prevented me from a deeper relationship with Jesus also impacted my relationship with my children….
They are amazing human beings and I am learning so much more about them as my listening improves…
They are funny…
I am laughing out load with them….
And they are noticing…
Must be new to them….
They are such independent thinkers….
They are a tremendous reflection of my healed wife and the love she poured into them…
They have grown up on me….
Where have I been?
Providing a living is my excuse….
Not worth what I have missed out on with Jesus and my children….
He continues to download thoughts and revelation at speeds I did not think I could comprehend….
In a weak moment, I asked Him this morning why has He asked me to do this without her?
He reminded me that He did not cause this, but just wait, He will use it for good…
He is so excited about our future….
He will use me and my children for good….
In ways we have never imagined…
The key is the be patient and He will slowly reveal His plan….
How do I be patient?
He revealed ….
Trust
How do I trust?
He revealed….
Remove your pride….
Ouch
He is right. (Of course). My pride matched with impatience leads me to leap on my own accord….
Frequently….
Thinking I know the path just after a hint….
Thinking I got this….
Thinking I just need a nudge and I got the rest….
I realize I need Him to guide my EVERY step…
Trust in Him with ALL my heart….
Be humble….
Be patient….
He will order our steps…
Not our leaps…
He will reveal our calling one step at a time….
I had so much more I wanted to talk about today…
But I gave the post to Him….
And this is where I landed….
I love my healed wife ….
I love the Hope we have in Jesus….
….. all the time God is good.
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