God is good all the time….
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you – Isaiah 26:3
It has been an amazingly productive week….
I have learned I cannot do this without a calendar…..
I have learned my reminders are useless 15 minutes prior….
I need a days warning…
Nearly everyday this week I have left the house early am….
An hour or so throughout the day at the house….
Returning with everyone by 9:30….
Finishing dinner at 10:30…. PM
My healed wife is in heaven getting a daily chuckle about my busy days….
Some of the struggles…
Do I really have to be sure they are fed….
No…
They make sure they are fed….
They figure it out…
Joseph and Caleb both cook for themselves…
I think it is edible….
They eat it….
Making sure I start my day and end my day with the same 5 kids….
Oh wait, it is not that easy….
What about sleepovers…
I have lost one….
The world is out of balance when we are not all together….
Missing one feels like we are missing three….
Endless counting….
Ok… one, two, three, four…. Yes, got them all.
Things are just right when we are all together… I rarely have to count…
Missing my healed wife in the flesh everyday…
So grateful she has left her legacy in our children to help us through this….
So grateful that her steadfast faithfulness to the Lord and commitment to family has taught us all so much….
We are not alone…
We have her…
We have Him….
Sleepovers…
What about when I have gained one….
Has someone else really trusted me to sustain life in their child for the night….
Another snicker from heaven….
How to get everyone where they need to be when they need to be….
I am supposed to be the logistics expert….
She chuckles again….
I am a peaceful wreck….
So blessed to have the opportunity to spend this kind of time with my children….
So involved in their lives….
Learning the intimate details of what they do everyday….
How they respond to life….
In the moment….
Invaluable….
Driving lessons have begun….
Yes, that is the bus she is driving….
She is doing well…
Not sure how I am doing….
I have not even touched on education yet….
A horse laugh from above…..
How am I going to homeschool…
So excited to be more involved…
And nervous….
I am not as smart as she was….
How am I ever going to fit work back into this schedule….
Was that a snort in her laugh I just heard….
He will show me….
He knows our needs….
He knows the desires of my heart…
He will guide every breath….
He will guide every step….
Leaps are on my own…
They don’t work out so well for me….
Patience….
He keeps reminding me…
Patience…
Less of me and more of Him….
I am getting better….
But still a long way to go….
I have opened up the path for Him to talk to me….
I am overwhelmed at all He wants to share with me…
I need a lot of work….
He is willing to do His part….
I just have to be willing to do mine….
Trust….
Listen….
Love….
Follow….
Give….
How….. stay tight with Him…
Through is Word….
Through prayer….
Through praise…..
Daily….
Sometimes hourly….
I have determined steadfast will fit the description of my character….
He will never leave me or forsake me….
His involvement in my life is up to me…
I am special in His eyes….
So are you….
He will never leave you or forsake you….
I have so much more to share…..
…. All the time God is good