God is good all the time….
Matthew 6:33 – Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness.
My daily reading has recently been pointing me toward not giving up on my God given dreams…
One of the last things my healed wife said to me was “Don’t stop living your life…”
I know she was talking about the life God designed for me ….with her spirit in heaven …with Him….
God has been working out some wrinkles in this area….
He has shown us many of my “dreams” have been worldly….
I have asked Him what is my calling?…
Show me my Godly purpose and dreams…
He gave me that answer today….
Seek first … Him….
Be patient….
I did not like that part….
I keep wanting to leap…
He is ordering my steps….
I am working on my patience…
My trust in Him….
Seek Him and everything else comes in line is what He is telling me…
My healed wife and I were just beginning to discover this together….
That my dreams were to elevate me…
Not Him….
My words may have said differently, but my heart was about my glory….
What were my plans for the finances to be gained by my dreams?….
To buy more stuff….
Not to further the kingdom…..
I miss my best friend….
I think I ramble with you all now because I don’t have her…
Be patient with me….
Thank you for listening….
This is what we would talk about together….
She would help keep me planted in the Word….
She was my accountability partner….
We were growing together…
Equally yoked…
She was so strong and rooted in Him…
She could always bring me back in line…
I am so excited about the revelations God continues to slowly put on my heart…
I am excited about the intimacy of my relationship with Him….
About the growth of my Children in Him….
About our future in Him….
This is all what we were discovering together on this beautifully horrible experience….
I thought she was going to be a part of it…
Our future….
I was right….
She is…
Every minute of everyday….
Her influence continues in the spirit….
In my children….
In me….
We will discover this new truly God focused life together….
I am talking more with Jesus everyday…
He is speaking….
I am finally listening….
I am not alone…
I have Him….
She is right there beside Him……
I imagine whispering in His ear….
Asking Him to take good care of us….
And asking Him to be sure I never let Joseph out of the house again with neon green shorts and a neon orange shirt….
He wore that drama camp one day this week….
I could hear her….
Maybe that was my conscious….
No it was her…..
She ALWAYS knew when I let the kids dress themselves….
We are still doing life together….
I know that…
Because of the Hope I have in Jesus….
The children and I have great peace….
We miss her…
But have great peace….
She is a part of everything we do in sweet discussion and sweet memory….
Not in sorrow….
But in joyful thoughts….
We are still doing life with her….
…..All the time God is good.