God is good all the time….
Trust in Him with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. – Prov 3:5
We were blessed with tickets to a soccer game yesterday…
An easy decision…
Caleb…..
I asked if he wanted to go to a soccer game….
He emphatically said yes with a smile….
His first question….
Are you going with me dad….
Yes….
He went from emphatic to ecstatic…..
It sounded fun….
It became meaningful to go with dad….
That is all God has wants from me….
To be with me…
To ask Him to come with me….
The one thing He wants from me….
Because He has given me free will…
The one thing He won’t force…
As a just and righteous God….
The one thing He cannot force….
A relationship with me….
That is all He wants….
Then life becomes meaningful….
An intimate relationship with Him….
It takes a first step from me…..
No matter where I am….
No matter the season….
Just one step from me….
To reach out….
To Him….
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you….
That is what His Word says….
I believe it….
I believe it all….
He has drawn close to me….
Over time….
As I have drawn closer to Him….
He has drawn closer to me…..
I went to Him in prayer….
A few months before my healed wife went to be with Him…..
We were believing for healing on earth….
It was beginning to look like her healing might be in heaven…
I prayed to Him….
Told Him if she came to be with Him now….
I will never understand…..
I will never understand why….
Why now….
Why so young….
I will never understand…
Tears flowing….
I continued….
I will not stop loving you Lord…..
I will not stop seeking you Lord….
I will not stop serving you Lord…..
But until we meet and you tell me Lord….
I will never understand…
It was a heartbreaking conversation….
The first toughest thing I have ever done in this beautiful horrible experience…
It was not the last….
He let that soak in….
He let that settle in my heart a bit….
Until I was ready for His response….
A month later….
About a month before she went to Him….
He put it on my heart….
Son….
When you come to see me…..
And you are in my presence….
In the greatness of the Lord…..
And your healed wife is right beside me….
Why will not matter….
It won’t even cross your mind…..
You will be with Me…
You will be with her….
Forever….
I cried at the truth in that revelation….
At the joy in that revelation….
At the peace in that revelation….
I wiped the tears….
And with a gentle nod….
Agreed….
Gathered myself….
And had one final thought….
One last comment to all that….
Ok, but I will still need to know who killed JFK….
I could hear Him laughing from here…
I could see my healed wife rolling her eyes….
It brought a smile to my face….
He was there with me….
At that moment…
Like He always is….
And she was by His side…..
Like she will always be….
I am so grateful for that picture….
For that truth….
For that Hope we have in Jesus….
I think of that conversation often….
I take another breath….
I take another step…
With Him….
With her….
….. all the time God is good.