God is good all the time….
His Grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” – 2 Cor 12:9
The enemy has been on the attack….
My mind….
My health….
My children….
Their minds…
Their health….
He is speaking lies to us everyday….
We are not listening….
We may hear him from time to time….
But we are not listening….
All he can do is lie….
Trying to mask his lies with shades of truth…
Scripture out of context….
If we hear him….
We cast out the thoughts….
And replace them with His thoughts….
For He is speaking louder….
His truth is so much stronger….
The enemy is frustrated….
His ways are not effective…..
He thought he could slow us down….
He thought he could stop us…..
Turn us away from God….
It’s done the opposite….
We are more fired up for Jesus than ever….
The enemy is frustrated…
What does frustration breed….
Desperation….
His attacks are pure desperation…..
Like a frustrated child….
Getting more obscure….
More ridiculous with every attempt….
Trying to get our attention…
We are not listening….
We sometimes hear…..
But our God …..
So much bigger than anything the enemy can throw at us…..
We have come so much closer as a family….
To each other….
So much closer to Jesus….
The enemy is losing….
I have read the end of the book….
It is a fixed fight….
The enemy loses…..
What he meant for evil our Jesus will turn to good…..
The summer has been so busy…..
It has been a bit distracting….
No routine….
School is almost here….
Routine is a requirement….
She was so good with the routine….
Flexible routine….
Huh….
I don’t even know that could exist.….
But she displayed it daily….
She was such an anchor to the routine….
She still is….
Her heart…..
Her passion….
Her love….
Her care….
Her focus….
Her tenderness….
All still alive in all of us….
Her presence will be evident in our daily routine….
Homeschool….
That is an intimidating word….
Sounds like it requires me to be smart…
Short straw in that department for sure…
Intimidation is in the unknown….
I don’t know what I don’t know….
So many amazing people have come along beside me….
Bringing me along….
Leading….
Helping….
Guiding…
We got it….
I think….
Leaning into Him….
His Grace is sufficient….
He is not allowing more than we can handle….
I know that….
He has plans for us….
A future and a hope….
Speaking of future….
How am I ever going to work again….
Where does that fit in my day….
I have given that to Him….
Something I have realized I have kept from Him….
Unintentionally…
But pridefully…
Until now….
My career…..
It was always to glorify me….
Not to glorify Him….
To shine a light on me….
My skill….
My leadership…
Not Him and His goodness….
Not any more….
I have given it to Him….
He will provide the perfect solution…..
I pray I see it….
It will not look like anything I have ever experienced….
I pray I don’t look past it…
I am excited for what that new season will look like….
His ways are so much better than my ways…
He has been a bit quiet recently…
As quickly as I wrote that in my journal….
He reminded me…
He is not quiet….
I am not listening….
I had not made my self available….
I was distracted with fear….
The static….
The noise….
I remembered….
Just be still…..
Listen….
Trust….
He was back…..
Loud and clear…..
Before I finished my writing….
He is always here….
Waiting for me to engage….
He wants to bless us….
To guide us….
To pour His love on us….
We just have to be available….
So much revelation about myself these last months….
Because I have changed my heart….
I now listen…
I was so independent….
I thought is was a sign of strength…
A sign of power….
Of maturity….
A badge of honor…
I can do it all….
I don’t need help….
I was independent….
That has not worked well for me….
For a short season it might….
But it falls apart quickly….
In my work….
In my family…..
In my friendships….
I realized I was not just independent of help on earth….
I would try to be independent of help from Him…..
That badge I wore so proudly…
Was a badge of ignorance…
Of blindness….
Of arrogance….
I got this Lord….
Just watch….
Trying to be successful in the eyes of man…
Trying to make Him proud….
He already is….
It is that perfect love He has for me….
I don’t need to earn more….
I cannot earn more….
My independence was masking arrogance….
I need Him….
Everyday….
With every step….
That is not weakness….
That is wisdom….
That is strength….
He has sent so many people to help….
With encouragement….
With love….
With labor….
With finances….
With food….
With soccer tickets…
With mowing….
With cowboy hats…
With support….
In EVERY area….
I have received it…..
I needed it….
My children needed it….
We continue to need it…
All….
I pridefully turned it away in the past….
He has taught me to be dependent on Him….
And those He sends to bless me….
In the midst of the worst time of my life…..
He is shinning brighter….
Showing me His love….
I don’t have this….
Not with out Him….
With Him…..
We got this….
Is this season easy…..
No….
The enemy keeps attacking….
Thinking he has us down….
I just keep giving it to Him….
His burden is easy and His yoke is light….
Together, we have got this….
Fear and doubt attack me everyday….
I cast it out….
I cast my care on Him….
Because He cares for me….
The enemy loses….
I miss holding my healed wife’s hand….
That does not give him victory….
It makes me stronger….
Makes me never forget her….
A three braided cord can never be broken….
My cord will always be braided with Jesus and the spirit and memories of my healed wife….
IT will never be broken….
I depend on….
I lean into….
I trust….
I love….
My God….
Because He first loved me….
I have realized….
I am not who I thought I was….
I thought I was giving….
Caring….
Putting others before myself….
Generous….
What I was….
Does not compare…
To what we have received….
I am convicted….
To be who I thought I was….
The hands and feet of Jesus….
He has shown me what that really looks like…
I am convicted….
I am an infant….
Learning and growing….
So much….
I want to be the hands and feet….
….. all the time God is good