November 17th, 2023
God is good all the time….
Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. – Psalm 73:23-24
I overheard an awesome testimony on the radio….
An overcomer….
They had stage 4….
They are cancer free today….
Praise God….
To Him be all the glory….
In the flesh….
For just a moment…
I let envy slip in….
I let pity slip in….
I got selfish….
Why not me….
Why not her….
It does not seem fair….
I had a friend tell me the same….
It does not seem fair….
I had to answer myself…
The same way I answered her….
She is in heaven….
How can I say that is unfair….
If anything….
What is unfair….
Is that she gets to be in his presence….
She finished her race….
She is in His glory….
Fully healed….
Fully whole….
I am stuck on this dirt ball called earth….
I am not finished….
I am not finished glorifying Him on this earth….
I have more to do….
He depends on it….
His plan depends on it….
People depend on it….
Salvations depend on it…
It is an honor….
To still be here….
To still have lives to change….
There is nothing unfair….
About any of it….
He died….
So I may have the hope….
So I may know….
That we will all be together again….
Our time on earth…
Is just a vapor…
We will be together again….
For eternity….
I cannot comprehend eternity….
I know it is a really really really long time….
That is good enough for me….
Nothing is unfair about this….
Her in heaven….
Victory…..
The children and I….
Growing closer to the Lord….
Victory…
Having an intimate relationship with the Lord….
Victory….
Getting to do works to glorify Him….
Victory….
Getting to spread His love…
His goodness…
His faithfulness….
Victory….
Nothing unfair about it…
Not that she is there….
And we are here….
Nothing is unfair….
He has turned it all for good….
For her….
For us….
He is guiding our every step….
His calling on my life is clearer than ever….
To raise my five world changers…..
To advance His Kingdom with our testimony of His goodness…
To give all of my time to him…
To be full time, all out for the Lord….
What does that look like….
I have no idea…..
He knows me well enough….
Enough to only reveal one step at a time….
Not two at a time….
Just one…
He knows I will rush out ahead….
With my head down….
in my own power…
In pride…
Like I don’t need His direction….
When I finally look up…
I will be somewhere….
But nowhere close…
Nowhere close to where He intended me to be…
Had I let Him guide EVERY step…
I rush ahead….
My 5 world changers….
Will be in tow….
Behind me….
Nowhere close….
To where He intended US to be….
I don’t have her….
To help slow me down….
To help bring balance….
I need Him more than ever….
I have never trusted like this in my life….
Given EVERY step….
Being ok….
Not seeing the next step….
It is all just a fog ahead of me….
It is a bright, beautiful fog….
One step at a time….
I give it all to Him….
I will not do this without Him….
My children depend on it….
The lives He needs me to influence….
For His glory….
Depend on it….
I start every day….
Here I am….
Here I am….
It is an honor….
To give everything….
Everything to you Lord….
I may be broken…
But you can use anything….
You can have it all….
Here I am….
….All the time God is good
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