God is good all the time….
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness.” – Lamentations 3:22,23
You may not know our story….
Our troubles….
They are not special….
Or unique….
Everyone has them….
Their own version of tragedy….
Personal….
Financial….
Relational….
Everyone has them….
Our troubles….
They have been filled with the goodness of God….
His hand….
His presence….
His love….
Some of our troubles….
Were brought on ourselves….
Some were persecutions….
Regardless the cause….
He was there….
Waiting for us to ask….
Ask for help….
Ask for His presence….
Ask for His peace….
Ask for His comfort….
Every area we have given Him….
He has shown up….
In abundance….
Financially….
I have not worked since February….
I was focusing on taking care of my healed wife….
Since she went to be with Jesus….
I have been focused on loving my children….
On learning a new way of living….
A new way of living with my healed wife….
Their healed mama….
Learning how to continue….
In a way that honors her….
A way that glorifies Him….
How to continue with Homeschool….
That was her passion….
Her calling….
I promised her….
I would not mess them up….
Keeping them homschooled….
Is part of that promise….
I should not have been able to go this long….
This long without a paycheck…
Two years ago….
We filed personal bankruptcy….
Another story….
For another day….
Another story of His goodness….
A story of His faithfulness….
A story of His presence….
A story of His provision….
We lost our house….
At 52 years old…..
I was stripped down to almost zero….
Financially starting over….
There is no way….
This past year….
No way….
I should have been able to take care of my healed wife and children….
But God…..
He provided….
Through the blessing of so many others….
Through His love….
He has provided….
He will never forsake us…..
I have been waiting on a bill….
A hospital stay from January….
I have not seen one yet….
Insurance was declining it….
I knew it was coming….
Sooner or later….
Expecting $30,000 to $50,000 bill…..
It came….
I opened it slowly…..
Knowing….
No matter what it said…..
He will provide…..
It was itemized….
Total bill – $27k
Total paid – $27k
You owe – $200.00
Praise God….
Praise God….
Praise God….
The next letter….
From a Radiologist….
I could not imagine what it was for….
I though I had paid them in full….
What now….
I opened it up….
I had overpaid them….
It was a refund….
$237…..
God is so good…..
What could have been a $50k bill….
Turned into $37…..
That is just one small way….
That He continues to show in our lives….
He put it on my heart….
Spoke to my heart….
Kerry…..
Don’t worry about your finances….
You have been faithful….
I will be faithful….
You are doing what you need…
Doing what I have called you to do….
Raising your 5 world changers….
You are preparing to serve Me….
At a greater capacity….
Even though you don’t know what that means….
Don’t know what that looks like…..
You are still stepping out in faith….
You are preparing….
For whatever I am bringing your way….
Kerry…..
My son….
I have got this…..
I have got you….
I have got your children….
You do your part….
Prepare the horse for battle….
Victory rest in Me…..
Victory rests in the Lord…..
That is what He put on my heart….
As I was praising Him for His faithfulness…
That was how He responded…..
I got you son….
You keep seeking first My kingdom and righteousness….
You keep living a life worthy of My calling…..
You and your children have work to do for me….
I will provide….
Her spirit had such a big impact on earth….
It will have an even greater impact in heaven….
Honor her….
Glorify me….
Kerry….
My son…..
I got you….
With My righteous right hand….
I got you….
That intimate conversation….
That connection with the Holy Spirit….
That presence….
That love….
That intimacy is the beautiful….
The beautiful of this beautiful horrible experience….
That relationship….
His goodness….
His faithfulness…..
His presence….
His hope….
His love…..
That is the peace….
The peace in the peaceful wreck that I am….
As I draw near to Him…..
He draws near to me….
As my children draw near to Him….
He draws near to them….
As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord…..
That has come off our lips so many times….
It is on our wall…
Our actions have fallen short….
Other priorities have taken over….
No more….
I can never leave this place….
This relationship….
That He desires to have with me…..
The intimacy….
And heaven is so much more….
The beauty of it all….
I am not special….
My children are not special….
This is not favoritism…..
This is available to everyone…..
He is no respecter of people….
He will give this to anyone….
My heart breaks….
For anyone….
Who does not know Him…..
Who is not seeking Him….
For anyone….
Who knows Him….
But is not seeking Him….
For anyone….
Who knows Him….
But has drifted in tragedy….
For anyone….
Who has been overcome….
Overcome by circumstances….
He is the beauty….
Of this beautiful horrible experience….
He is the peace….
Of this peaceful wreck that I am….
He wants to be that to everyone….
The beauty….
The peace….
He wants to be that for you….
Great is His faithfulness…..
Jesus loves you…..
….. all the time God is good.
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