God is good all the time….
Peace, be still ….. Mark 4:39
The summer is winding down…
Back to school….
Back to routine….
The routine my healed wife mastered….
We will find a new routine….
One that works for all of us….
One that reflects her….
One that is led by Him….
It won’t be the same….
But it won’t be void of her…..
Or Him….
It will be a testimony….
A testimony to His love….
A testimony to her faith….
A testimony to the goodness of God….
I am a peaceful wreck…
No idea what I am doing….
But trusting in Him…
Trusting in Him for every breath…
Every step…
Every decision…
He is there….
Loving….
Guiding…..
Comforting….
I have no clue what I am doing….
I can’t see beyond my next step…
That used to be uncomfortable….
So much so….
That I would create my own path….
In total pride…
Like I can do this on my own…
I get a glimpse from Him….
A glimpse of direction….
A glimpse of a step….
Impatience and pride set in….
And I run….
My own unguided path….
But my path….
Not His path….
That has never worked out well for me….
He wants me to trust Him….
One step at a time…
If I let Him…
He will order my steps….
Not my leaps….
I am a planner….
I always have a map….
That travels for years down the road…
He is asking me to trust Him….
Only revealing….
One. Step. At a time……
That is a big ask….
But He is a big God….
So I have….
I can’t see beyond the step…
It is not darkness beyond the step….
It is light…
His blinding light….
It is a light full of Hope….
Full of joy….
Full of a future….
With Him….
With her……
With my children…
A light full of blessings….
Full of serving….
Full of His glory….
It is a light of peace….
Peace….
Be still….
I am a peaceful wreck….
I would have it no other way….
The relationship….
The intimacy that has grown….
In the flesh….
I wish there would have been a different catalyst….
I miss her horribly….
But what the enemy meant for evil….
He has turned to good….
I could never wish her out of His presence….
Or wish this intimacy away….
The flesh begs for her hand….
I miss the intimacy of holding her hand…
But the Spirit overwhelms the flesh….
Overwhelms it with a peace…
A peace that surpasses all understanding….
This has been a beautiful horrible experience….
I am a peaceful wreck…
I will run this race….
At His pace….
Not mine…
Only knowing one step at a time….
And that is ok….
Because I am discovering….
His peace….
And all HIs glory….
His comfort….
His love….
Comes with the faith….
And the trust….
To follow Him….
One step at a time….
….. all the time God is good.
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