God is good all the time….
My healed wife has been resting peacefully since early Mother’s Day morning. Her vitals have been stable, and she wakes for a brief few moments and is back to rest. She almost always recognizes and somehow acknowledges visitors. We get open eyes sometimes, but sometimes just a beautiful smile. Sometimes she struggles to put words to her thoughts, but we cherish the times when she is able to communicate through her words, a hand squeeze, a smile, or a look. Yesterday I got a simple but audible “hold my hand.” It melted my heart and of course I held her hand for what was probably much longer than she intended. Her pain level has been very low for the most part so praise God for that.
Although her body is still not coming in line with her healing, we are standing strong for a miracle. God is good and He is carrying our family through this season. We have had several conversations with the children discussing how Mommy’s body is going the opposite direction from her healing. We discussed how there is a chance her healing may be in heaven and that one way or another, she will arise soon, just as the Word promises, whether it be here on earth or in heaven. The absolute worst that can happen in the flesh, is that Mommy goes to be with Jesus. In the flesh, that is horrible, but in the Spirit, that is an amazing worst case scenario. God has laid such a graceful peace on our family. Although we don’t know where her manifestation is going to happen, we know…..
She and God will always be with us.
We still know all that is good is from God and that He loves us and will never leave us or forsake us.
We know that NOTHING can separate us from the love of God.
We know that He is the way, the truth, and the life.
We know we are more than conquerors, we are redeemed, we are forgiven, we are blessed, we are accepted in the beloved, and so much more.
He will supply all our needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
We know God is pure love and that the enemy is who comes to steal, kill, and destroy!
We know God has overcome the world!
The children have asked what will we do if my healed wife goes to be with Jesus? I am nothing but transparent and responded with tears flowing, that I have no idea, but we will lean even harder into our loving God and let Him continue to guide our footsteps and carry us through. We will continue to trust in Him with all of our hearts!
I will have to say, this has been a beautifully horrible experience. The horrible is obvious….
But God….
We have drawn closer as a couple, we have drawn closer as a family, and we have all drawn closer to Jesus. Mary Carol and I figured that we have not been more than 6 feet apart for about 20 hours a day since the beginning of February. That might drive some couples crazy, but it has brought us closer than we have ever been to each other. Our walk with God has become so much more intimate.
I have had so many amazing and intimate conversations with Him like I have never had before. I have realized that He has been there all along.
It is me who has not been available for the conversations.
It is me who has been to busy with life.
It is me who has not taken the time to slow down and clear the static out of my mind and seek conversations with Him.
It is me who needed to just Be Still.
He has been there all along waiting to grow closer to me.
This new relationship has been so beautiful that I want to protect it and grow it at any cost. We have warned the children to buckle up, once we get through this season, we will not miss another direction from God and that we will be led by the Spirit in ALL that we do no matter where that takes us. That applies to every aspect of our lives – including my career. The children have also ALL grown so much closer to God through this season. What the enemy meant for evil the Lord has turned to good!!
When people ask me how I am doing, the best I can come up with is that I am a peaceful wreck.
I am at such tremendous peace.
I have no idea what tomorrow will bring but I am at peace with whatever it may be.
I have at least had My Healed Wife playing head coach from the bed for the last 3 months but the last two weeks I have been on my own.
I have no idea what I am doing, and I miss her horribly.
My best friend has been pretty silent, and I am a wreck without her. God has been there to comfort me and bring peace and guidance and has supplied an amazing support staff of my Mother-in-law, my sister, my sister-in-law, along with an amazing number of other family and friends. Our house has been non-stop with visitors blessing my healed wife with love, prayers, and affection. In transparency, this has been tough to watch, and I wish every day I could take it from her. But God continues to show up! He is using her testimony to change lives!
We love you all and are so thankful for all your support. We pray for each one of you almost daily. How are you all? Please, please, let us know if there are specific prayers, we can say for you. Shoot me a private message. Prayers are one way we can give back right now.
…. All the time God is good.
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